I was getting things ready to do pooja to Siva. It was in the middle of our living room, not in the pooja room. I set up a Sivalingam on a piece of new cloth. There were all the paraphernalia needed to perform the worship. As I sat down, I remembered that we had parijatha flowers in our garden and got up to bring them. (when I was growing up in Nellore, we did have a huge parijatha tree in our back yard and it was my job to collect the flowers for my grandmother's older sister for pooja). Anyway, i collected the flowers in a large bowl, sat down in front of the altar, took hand full of those delicate, fragrant white flowers in my cupped palms to pour on the lingam. When I raised my head, to my surprise, instead of the Sivalingam, I saw a huge dark man who looked liked Ravana (from Ramayana). For a split second, the thought 'how come, I sat down to worship Siva and instead, this Siva bhakta (devotee of Siva) is here' occurred and he was all smiles. As I raised my cupped hands to pour the flowers on him, I woke up with the sound of shattered glass and that means, I did not worship that form. I got up from my bed looked around the bedroom walls and nothing fell. I walked into the hall way and I saw the 4X6 card board piece with four lines of Swami's quote that had been hanging on the door of the pooja room was now lying on the floor.
Later on, I mentioned this dream to Diane Doughman and she said "it is possible that Baba is warning you 'not to worship the ego, now all your material needs are being fulfilled' . It sounded correct since Ravana is the embodiment of ego, rajasic, even though he was a devotee of Siva. Thank you for the warning Swami.
It is more than 30 years since I have experienced these dreams and I may not be expressing them properly.
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